Recently I had an epiphany of sorts. All surrounding a five
letter word. Faith. For most we associate faith with religion-and whether or
not we believe in some form of Deity. But faith comes in all forms, and it’s
something I think it’s safe to say we all struggle with in some degree.
I have never struggled with faith in regards to my religion.
I know what I believe is true; I know that I have a Heavenly Father who loves
me and blesses my life. I have known this from a very early age and have never
wavered. Some people say I blindly follow, but to them I simply say “you don’t
have to look for something you already know.” In this regard my faith is as
easy as breathing.
Where I struggle with this little word is having faith in
others. There have been a lot of circumstances that have shaped me and made me
who I am. Some are good, and some not so much. I am no longer bright-eyed and
in love with the world; but rather I am cynical, angry, and distrusting towards
that same world I once loved. Because of this I am very much a “if you want
something done (not necessarily right, just done), you need to do it yourself.”
Because of being burned before I always prefer to do things myself; that way I know
it’s done and done the way I want it/need it to be.
Because of my experiences I have a hard time having faith in
people and their ability to follow through with what they say they will do, or
asking for help because I don’t trust people to do what they say. Although I
WANT to believe they will come through, more often than not I find myself
expecting the “inevitable” and not being surprised when people do let me down.
Yes, I understand what you put out to the Universe is what you get in return, but this
is just something I’m really struggling with. I WANT to be that person who
trusts people at their word rather than looking at it with skepticism and
setting people up to fail before they've even begun.
How does one regain faith in people? Because I’ll admit, I
have none.
